Monday, August 20, 2007

Today was emo day, felt quite sad from the moment i woke up. Many things ran thru my mind as usual many things have changed over the pass year. you have changed, i have changed, and maybe u too. But in my eyes, you remained the same no matter what and no matter how many times I leave. Sometimes I just hoped that you would stay the same. I have gave you the opportunity and time to do so by parting, but you just don't get it. Separation was never easy, however I got too used to it and I seem to change. Now it is a stalemate between us, it never improved what so ever. And now you have substitutes of me in your life, 1 by 1. But you realised that they can never replaced me in your life. No matter what happens, you will find me after awhile. I'm always puzzled by your actions, rejected it and want it back. Maybe is the fond memories that are embedded in your mind that makes you hold on to it. Perhaps and hopefully I'm wrong.

And secondly to you, we both have changed obliviously and time passes just so fast. You have improved in your attitude by abit and I'm glad for you. You were more forgiving than i thought, you forgave her faster than me and also forgave me for some of my wrongdoings. Sad to say you have been led astray by your new found companion. I wouldn't blame you or them, maybe you just need something that is more exciting in you life. Heed and my advice and try to come back to the so called "correct" path. I will just like you to know nothing will change between us, but remember to study you ass. Thanks for your companionship all these time. I will not be seeing you so often once I'm out, do take care.

Lastly is moi. I have changed rapidly and I know it crystal clear. A typical boy to a emo metal rocker. Although i have to admit I'm always optimistic on the outside, many a times I just know that's not gonna happen. Also, I have turned more eccentric and crazy over the past year. More reckless and daring I would say, crazy thought just pass through me at times. It is not easy to be well-liked, that makes you always in the center of everything. You can never be with one group because the other one will be unhappy. Thus it makes life very contradicting and nerve cracking. Decision must always be made decisively if not things will turn sour. Till now I still feel something is wrong about me but i do not know what..

screw this sinful place called earth